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of Sundays and all the love.

Thank you, girlies (May, qi, grace, Julia, Ron-ica, Keithly) for being so lovely. You guys been my encouragement, my support. Thanks for being so understanding and ever so wonderful. I love all of you. Very much. I love Sundays because we would all gather to worship the one and only. it’s amazing how God’s love binds all of us together.

After watching that video in service today, I was reminded to not complain about my circumstances, not to whine about how horrible things are, but really to change my attitude and my heart. so much to think about.

hahahaha!

I was reading my emails and i thought this is funny!

“dates, dinners, friend got divorced, psychological problems, last min work for other modules do not qualify as excuses. if you contributed to the delaying of the ppt being completed you will be marked down, at least by me. sick of covering people’s asses for the past 3 years. “

CRUNCH TIME BABY!! EVERYONE’S NOT VERY NICE. IM NOT A VERY NICE FEL TOO!

Thank You Jesus.

Work drives me crazy. Almost everything seems impossible to manage. I find myself struggling to breathe. So many things are going on. No time, no time, no time. Weird, 24 hours is really not enough. Tsk.

Yet today, God reminded me that my strength should come from Him. Even though so many times, in my busyness i let God down, or i just put Him aside, He has never stop loving me. Who would ever love me like the way God loves me? Nobody could ever compare. And nobody would love me like Jesus loves me.

Having said all of that, here’s a song that truly encourages me. It’ll be my favourite song for the next 4 weeks. It shall see me through this last semester.

Come Holy Spirit
City Harvest Church

Come Holy Spirit fall on me now
I need Your anointing, Come in Your power
I love You Holy Spirit
You’re captivating my soul
And everyday I grow to love you more

I’m reaching for your heart
You hold my world in Your hands
Drawing me closer to You
I feel my power renewed
Nothing compares to this place
Where I can see You face to face
I worship You in Spirit and in truth.

Thank You Jesus. For renewing me.

of decisions and choices.

At some points in our lives, we find ourselves at cross junctions. There are so many paths ahead, which route should we really take? You see, we can plan, weigh pros and cons, yet we can never know for sure if what lies ahead of us, exactly.

Sometimes, it really sucks having to make a decision. We have doubts. We fear making a wrong choice that could very well be, irreversible.  So as I am blogging now, i have so much going on in my head. I need to make many decisions and i am so unsure.

The choices that we wanna make really depends on what our primary objective is. And when we decide to go ahead, we need to be very focussed on our ultimate goal. Even as i plan for my overseas studies, or getting my PR, etc, I begin to find out more and really realise what im getting myself into. Then i take a step back and question myself, “Is this what i want? Am i determined enough to see myself through what’s before me? Am i focussed on my objectives?” All these questions keep repeating themselves to me in my mind.

After all the conflicts i have within me, i finally concluded that if i dont give it a shot, i’ll really regret it. perhaps i wont regret so soon, but 10 years down the road, one day, i’ll question myself, “What if i had just went ahead with what i wanted to do? Would i have been different now?”

It’s a huge decision for me, especially when im paying for my own education. I dont know where my monthly rent or allowance is gonna come from, but i trust in the Lord to provide. And honestly, God is all i have to depend on, now, and for the rest of my life.

And finally, ive decided. This is it.

I am going to apply for Curtin University, majoring in Advertising and perhaps PR. After 2 years, I intend to look for a job, apply for PR and hopefully settle down in Perth.

To most people, it might seem really crazy to think so far off. But this is Felicia for you. I always plan 5 years ahead. hahahaha. Keep me in prayer. I know my plans are set, but I still trust that God will lead me the way he wants me to go. My plan changes according to God’s will in my life.

4 more weeks.

assignments due:

1. MASINA research paper 40% due next monday
2. ADVERT Final Year Project – Big concept, execution of creatives, media planning and presentation due 22nd Jan
3. TVJOURN 1/2 hour tv news due in 2 weeks
4. ACTING/DIRECTING Journal due next wed, Video 2 in next 2 weeks, Scene work on 5th Feb
5. MEDLAW Individual ass by next week
6. CSC due TMR
7. WISP presentation

I cant wait for school to be over and done with.

sighs.

Ive never felt this stressed up before. Ive never felt like i want to get out of mass comm as soon as i could. I JUST CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO BE OVER. Save me, Jesus. Im dying, ive lost all momentum to study, i just dont feel like doing anything and im really stressed up.

Have been thinking about money issues lately as well. I need to pay off my debts. I need to get out of debts man. tsk tsk tsk. I am scared, i dont know how i’ll be able to handle my own financial when i leave for Australia.

it seems like the world is moving too quickly, im just lost. I find myself not knowing how to react or what to do. I just wanna stone and watch everything else fade away.

sigh, super alot of work. no time. super alot of work. NO TIME!

new year, new start

Yes, playing clandestine. I cant think of a better name, less stupid than this. Some people judge me on what i write and use what im going through as a bitching topic. I think thats rude and the only thing i could do is to MOVE.

Thoughts are personal therefore, i shall only share them with friends who truly care (people like you who’s reading this now, dont you feel very special? ) And i guess im comfortable enough to share my innermost thoughts with all of you because you’ll watch me grow and pray for me.

I love you guys, who accept and love me, just as i am. Thank you and *bows* goodnight.

goodbye 2007, hello 2008.

15 mins past midnight. I ended 2007 with thanksgiving and received 2008 in quietness. I havent felt like Ive accomplished much in 2007. Time flies a little too quickly. I’ve been feeling unsettled ever since i came back from my little getaway in Thailand with a few church friends. We had a wonderful time, eating, shopping, talking to the local taxi drivers about Jesus, doing QT and all. It was really a beautiful holiday.

It’s back to reality now. All my work’s piling and ive got so much to settle. I began to feel really stressed up about coming back to face life. We’re back in all the hustle and bustle. It’s meaningless, dont you think? At the end of the day, all is empty, all is just meaningless. Where’s my enthusiasm for life? More importantly, where’s my peace, joy and hope? And as i start to question my life, my purpose, i start to find the true meaning again. Christ is the meaning for everything I do.

With my strength, i cannot face the world. But with God’s strength, i can take on the world. It’s okay to feel sad, but i need to know the reason, move on with it and not let it stay with me for too long. It’s gonna be tiring living up to the expectations other people have of us, but if im gonna live for Jesus and give my best to Him everyday, I am gonna make it through 2008 with true joy and happiness and everlasting peace.

As i sit down to set my goals and target for 2008, i ask God to renew me and strengthen me, so that i might be able to carry on in 2008. But you know how Resolutions dont always pull through? So im gonna do like quarter resolutions. It shall last for 3 months. This way, it’s more achievable and realistic.

2008 FIRST QUARTER New Year’s resolution

1. Start doing purpose driven life from 1st jan 2008 till the 9th Feb 2008.
2. No skipping of lessons.
3. No spending of more than $80 a week.
4. Do my QT every morning.
5. No taking of cabs to school.
6. Drink at least 3litres of water everyday.
7. Cut down on cuss words.

Happy New year guys. I hope your 2008 will be filled with true joy and everlasting peace.

memories.

It sucks when a random memory decides to creep into your mind out of the blue. it totally sucks, I promise.

You see, it’s amazing how times flies… yet all these while, the feelings and past memories seem to stay, when you think they should fade away soon. Then it somehow comes back to haunt, to remind you how much happiness you used to share with someone else. It’s a good and bad feeling you see.

You begin to wonder, with no intentions, just wonder, what things would have been if things went the way it was planned? or What would have happened if we held on to what we used to believe in. What could have been if we’re in love…

There are so many questions left unanswered. so many things i really wanna know. ive got so much i wanna say, so much i wanna know. It has been 1 and a half years…
since you left.